......MaY's MeMoRiEs.....

...nuthin

2005-11-25T00:20:00.000-08:00

wat sackaz...thought i forgot about this thingyy??...well i did..hahha...and when i remembered ..i was just too lazy 2 rite anythin..ummm..yeah....may will rite more some other day..

im leavig soon.

2005-06-11T16:25:00.000-07:00

oow saturday. such a nice weather after the damn rain. im leaving monday. im goin to usa and i will see my dad. and then in 2 weeks i will seee my mom and brother. thats is soo nice, i miss them a lot . i never been away from them for such long time, 13 months..damn. and the worst thing is that almost every time i talk with them on phone, my lil brother cries askin when i will come back..ahh that just breaks my heart....
im so sad that i missed this last week, i didnt even get a chance to say goodbye to my friends, my girls especialy.im gonna miss them so much after all that stuff we've been together.
especialy kimone and me, she's been there for me most of time. kimm and me had suchh damn good time, ahh... i just love her and the way she makes fun of everythig ( she aint bad tho), she was the one who showed me how to stand up for myself, how to check out every cute guy and dont get caught(hahahah..we did that a lot), how to show ur bitchy attitude to those old perverted bastards who stuck up to us in trains all the time, .......
ahhh and i dont knoe wat else to write...anyways i hav to go now and meet my cousin at station.

this is me and kimone on a train

wish everyone to have very good summer holydays =)

friday soon

2005-06-06T11:55:00.000-07:00

ahh monday...no school...but i want to go to school..am so bored home..goddam.it was raining and out side is so wet and grey ..ahh sucks..hav only 3 days in left goin to school and i want so much to skeep them..dont knoe wat i want to do..actualy i knoe wat i want to do but i cant do it.not until friday aneways..khekhe..ohh cant wait til friday, something tells me it gonna b so niiice...well cant write anething more hav to go, shopin wit my granny....bye

just 2 words

2005-05-29T19:45:00.000-07:00

HATE this day!!!! ....so boring and so yakii....today somebody told me..wel not told wrote 2 words that actualy broke my heart and u knoe wat.. tis words had absolutely nothin to do wit love or anythin like that..or at least i think so....dammit...i was at the edge of burstin in tears ... but i didnt, i had to hold my self, i had to b strong...and u knoe tis words would hurt no matter from who i'd hear them...but not that much like rite now, i gues i just hav to accept tat and........and........ soon is summer and everything wil pass....i hope....NO!!..i knoe it will...

Note enamores del Amor

2005-05-28T22:53:00.000-07:00

Note enamores del Amor,

Enamorate de alguien que:

Te ame,que te espere, que te comprenda aun el la locura;

De alguien que ayude,que te guie,

Que sea tu apoyo, tu esperanza tu todo.

Enamorate de alguien que no te traicione, que sea fiel,

que suene contigo, que solo piense en ti, en tu rostro, en tu delicadeza, en tu espiritu

y no en tu cuerpo o en tus bienes.

Enamorate de alguien que te espere hasta el final,

de alguien que sea lo que tu no elijas, lo que no esperas.

Enamorate de alguien que sufra contigo,

que ria junto a ti, que seque tus lagrimas, que te abrigue cuando sea necesario,

que se alegre con tus alegrias

y que te de fuerzas despues de un fracaso.

Enamorate de alguein que vuelva despues de las peleas,

despues del desencuentro,

de alguien que camine junto a ti,

que sea un buen companero, que respete tus fantasias,

tus ilsiones.

Enamorate de alguien que te ame.

No te enamores del Amor,

Enamorate de alguien que este enamorado de ti.

Cuidado que hay un nino llamado Cupido

y anda haciendo bondades por ahi.

2005-05-26T23:33:00.000-07:00

ahhhh friday soon!!....end of tis damned week and im still alive after so many tests...miracle..wel still 2 tests left for next week.....only 19 and half days days left for meh to b out tis country..and u knoe wat?? i dun feel so happy bout tat, i knoe ima see ma mom and bro ..and Tati and Nadya(ahh miss thos bitches), but still... and i dun knoe reasons of my unhappines .... am lying now i knoe them, but they'r just soo f****n silly...its just imposible bein upset bout things like tat. howeva im! ..want to slap myself for tat...dammit...hav to cheer up and i knoe exactly HOW and wit who .!!...heheh..just dont think its anythin "nasty"...

jjust lov tis pic.look so cute..jajaj....AND AGAIN FOR EVERYONE ..AM NOT A LESBI!!!..i like BOYS...so shut the f*** up.

luv u

2005-05-22T22:45:00.000-07:00

i got it

2005-05-19T14:04:00.000-07:00

yeaah love tis dae.first of all i've done math test....and i aint gonna fail it i knoe... second good thin is i found out the ADRESS....yay.....so cool..goona buy so realy cute shoes today tooz...=)..next week gonna b one crazy ass week... gonna have so many tests .damn!!...but its ok... sooon the end of school like 3 weeks left,...and miami here i come...

where is mi babe?

2005-05-11T20:42:00.000-07:00

hate tis week and the week befor and the week befor tat too...tat lil bastad havent show up for such long time.gosh..tats just killin me,..and the worse thing is tat i just dont understand him .why is he doin it...why he'v lost interes in school so sudenly...nobudy mocked him or anythin, or makin fun of him ..damn..wanna so bitch-slap him!!! and i will as sun as see him again! hope tat will b sun..if not i will juz go to monika and ask his adress and then show up at his place and bitch-slap him there(probabli wont do tat , just cant hurt tat lil sweet thing!!) wel i giv him time til end of tis week if he ainte comin ima go to monika....tomoroy hav english test..f***!!...and then other BIG FAT FINAL test and then nothing .. yaiiiii!! ennd of school..and then summer.. miami .. beach.. sun .. fun.. chocolat... mi lil bro&mom..Timon(just mi cat)...ohh it will b so damn good...jaja..and then i hav to come bak to swe...but its ok.....i will still hav mi craze freinds here..=)..at least hope tat...

2005-05-05T18:30:00.000-07:00

Wat's wrong wit me...why im so very angry becouse of such thing..why??..why does it bothers me so much??, its not mi damn busines anyways!!..i hav to find out wat happened becouse it wont let me sleep until i will knoe the cause of it.

2005-05-04T01:35:00.000-07:00

Will you dance with me baby??

and its rainin again

2005-05-03T19:10:00.000-07:00

..dont hav any more lessons tis week tis is just cool...but tis week sucks like hell...today was at doctor...she took mi sacred blood away(just hate tat!!but i wanna knoe wats is tat so wrong wit mi tis days)...and its rainin...plus kim is pissed at mi cuz i showed her pics to mi cousin(haha!!) and bcuz she thinks tat if i get wit mi boi together, me and her wont b good friendz abymore...tats is not true..i will never leave mi jamaican..im not like some ppz i knoe(not gonna mention their names here)...anyways hav to change mi blogy and song soon...they create tat nastily sad mood...yestadae saw such a gorgeous layout but cant take it..reveals too much bout somethings tat should not b seen or spoken....for now anyways...

why....

2005-04-28T23:03:00.000-07:00

wat de hel happened to mi blogylayout??...so f*****up now.....damm.....hav to change it, but i dont wanna, i love mi devilylayout....:(..
so many test r comin in school...im so afraid too fail anythin..wat if i wont get to IB?..dont want even thin bout it...the only good thing in here is weather so warm so sunny..(heaven!!)..and of cours mi babe(angel!!)..seen him today..aah how nice he was..as always , steel keep wonderin why he caught mi eyes..hi's a reverse of everythin i wan in man...

where is my angel?

2005-04-25T22:21:00.000-07:00

bored to hell............ its monday again...strange but i dont like this monday at all...PI sucked...found out tat Mattias and Simon aint gonna change to owr class(FUCK!) they didnt like teh school ...hhmm wats wrong wit it anyways??...but its ok....they aint only hot guys in stockholm. My lil angel :::::, (should not mention HIS name in here), ainte online and im dying to chatt wit him.... :(... hope to see him tomoroyz.... damn why he aint doin anythin...he knoe tat i like him...and i knoe tat he likes me.....sooo....goddam...if i had the initiative in mi hands i would be wit him by now. but in TIS country gels who make first step are called desperat slut (stupid ppl ,aint??!!).so i hav to wait....i will couple days mayb...but then...hah...i will move and vely fast , hes just tooo adorable to let other bitches hav him!!....hej duu

just like tis day..

2005-04-18T19:18:00.000-07:00

monday...today gonna b definetly best day of week....first cuz its monday mi favorite day. and Mattias came to school today for the entrance tests i guess...and his friend Simon or watever his name is came too...gosh...hes a cutie and asian and tall.....good mix..heheh...one thing ..he smokes, but its ok ,i can deal wit it i hav no prob wit ciggs...steel dont understand why its only mi who think hes cute...probably Vanja wil like him too. hes her "kinda" guy....wel to bad she aint gettin him...she can hav Tom and Eldar or even Sooman..oww yeah tat why i like tis day too..today i realized tat Kimone was right and i'm finaly gettin over tat boy..weei.not gonna continue wit this theme..mayb some day some guy will see mi blog..and it gonna b too embarasing if they'll read all this shit or more....heheh...changed da song..tis new one is sad....i dedicate it to mi friend...he didnt kill him self cuz everyone was bullin him roun he tried to kill him self cuz of....a girl(HATE TAT SLUT)..he jumped outa window...he didnt died....thank god!!.....wel i guess byebye .

hes a cutie

2005-04-17T12:18:00.000-07:00

yesterday me and Kimone went to Kassantia's bdae party. it was in some place- like a smal disco or sumthin.everything was great exept that it was in norsborg a.k.a damn far away. the party supose to start at 8..me and kimone..missed 2 busses(as always)on the train we thought tat we r gonna b the latest to arive..hah....resulted we were one of the first who came .... i dont get these swe ppl(i aint against them or anythin) but they always hav to b late ..damn....at the party i finally met the famous Mattias ..bout who i heard very a lot from Kimone and Tina...my first impresion - hes CUTE..vely vely cute ( wel duh! hes latino)..not gonna write more bout him in case if he gets acces to mi blog one day.ppl were talkin tat hes gonna change to owr class...hope he wil....cuz if not, i will start thinkin tat owr class is cursed or somethin...honestly...since beginin of year only new gels came(not tat i dont like them or anythin)..no new guys...tats just more than weird..im mean r all the guys in here tat stupid.??...r they scared of IB or sumthin??...gosh..pls..

2005-04-15T22:12:00.000-07:00

here..alone as always, was searching the net.....and found this poem..damn i like it...dont know wat broken-hearted chick wrote it, but i soo understand her...anyways heres da poem:

Heart breaker

Neva say I love u if it isn't realy there

Neva talk bout feelings if u really don't care

Neva hold my hand if u're gonna break my heart

Neva say u are gonna if u don't plan to start

Neva look into my eyes if all u do is lie

Neva say hello if u really mean goodbye

If u really mean foreva then please say u'll try....

Neva say forever.. because forever makes me cry..

.....

2005-04-15T11:11:00.000-07:00

i am sitting here...bored to hell.....jajaj.....friday finaly came.so good..get some time to sleep...i wouldn't survive in here if i didnt had mi gells.they rock, they are the best... u hav no idea how much fun we hav in school..messin around wit guys..
lunchbreak........sitting outside enjoyin the lovely sun......
tha gells(left2rite): Safiya,Kimone,Tina,Nina and Vanja.

me and miz dolly.....

las latinas...... Maylen y Erika

my bebegel Fatou.....luv ya attitude..

Lill and Tina....crazy ass chicks..

my gell Yady....shes da first one i meet when came here.....shes always here for mi

papies....

2005-04-13T20:30:00.000-07:00

crazy mi....goin crazy more n more...i dont knoe why but this weekim havin this kinda strange mood ... cant do anything useful at all....damn..english essay is due tomoroy and i havent even started...wel..i hav started ,just cant continue with it...and thiz guy keeps annoyin..( mi aunts boifwen calls every 10 minute..goddamit..doeznt he understands fraze "she workin now!!")..??..stupidass......mondae i had probabli most weirdazz mood,messeup wit guy in mi msn and now he thinks tat mi like him..(fuk!!)..wel ..i do like him..tiny-winy lil bit..(hes vely realy cute..uuh)...but i dun like him as he think i do...im steel completely into mi lil chiken =(...shit now im embarazed to look into tat guyz eyes.hav to do emideatli somthin bout it, until not too latez..today we saw guys who came to IB entrance interview.damn man.they were HOT ..no no.. they were probabli most sexy papies i saw in tis school..uuuof..especialy da blondie and da black one..hope they all get in.=)...pls god ..do tis miracle ...not only for mi...for all gelz in PreIb......

some party

2005-04-10T07:32:00.000-07:00

yeztadae was mi cousins bdae......hes 22 now...khehe.....lucky...we had lil patyy ..... but it was goood!!!..hehe.....as always..we neva hav borind patyys..cuz we'r cubanos....its in owr blood...hav alot off fun...shake IT.....heheh......
here are my favorite pics...hehe

us....after some hours of crazy dancin..

....dont they look like sistas?.....

yeah bebe.....shake it....

Happy bdae boy.......

this is good.....

dance with me babe.......heheh

mi world.

2005-03-30T15:25:00.000-08:00

i live in a borin and perverted world.....gosh.....i swear .sweden is one boring country.... there is nuthin to do in here..... xcept goin to movies and caffees....tats it??.....god.....i cant go even to discos or sumthin...i can actualy...but then i wil hav to go back home late...n alone.....n tat aint goood...........cuz ther r a lot of perverty bastads in here too............they duun care bout ya age!!!..... thos asholzz r mostly like 30-60...PEDOPHILES!!......they stuckup to u....specialy in the trains n trainstations...........askin ya name n number.....where do u live.... then they follow u aroun.....shit man......tat is yakyyy.....it happens to me all da damn time........once...i was goin home from school.... i was alone and in a miniskirt(bad combination!)......there was tis damn old guy.....he was like 55 or sumthin.......he saw me n started to chek me out...n then he looked aroun.......n tat nasty smile appeared on his face...he sat next to me....n started to talk to me...i didnt understood wat he was sayng.....uuhh gosh....i had to listen him for 20 minutz.....when finnaly it was ma station..i went fast to da elevator, i was so happy to get rid of him.....but no!!!.....suddenly i heard sumone talkin behind me when i turned around it was tat guy again.....shit.....i was so pissed.....an idea of kickin him and then runin away wennt through mi mind....but i didnt...... i just turned around and said VERY laud
" Wat's ya prob ashole??dun u hav anythin to do, besides followin me around??cant u leave me damn alone!! "....ppl aroun me heard tat n started to laugh......i didnt care...but he did...hah.....he dissapeared so fast...finaly!!......................but u knoe wat... about a week ago i met tat guy again.....in the train......he looked at me wit thos angry eyes.....but he couldnt do anythin...haha....cuz i wasnt alone tis time....sum guyz from mi class were wit me.......huh................

new guys..woohooo

2005-03-28T22:18:00.000-08:00

today gonna b definetelly best day of week..... its monday....ma favorite day..plus Mattias came to school for entrance test and his friend Saimon , or watever hes name is ,came too...gosh hes cutie and asian...and damn tall.ouf i dont understand why its only me who think hes cute....probably Vanja wil like him too .hes her "kinda" guy.....she aint gettin him though!!..she can hav Tom and Eldar....wely not gonna write more bout guys , one day they can get in here and it wil be too embarasing ..haha..wel its just me and mi crazy mind..too crazy probably..but i like it sooo...KISS MI ASS who ever dont like it....i canged mi song..... tis one is vely sad . i dedicate it to mi friend..one of the best guys i ever knew....he didnt kil himself cuz everyone was bullin him round.he did it cuz of a girl!!.....looks like mi story today has sad ending...

aunties bdae

2005-03-27T10:18:00.000-08:00

yestadae was ma aunties bdae...shes 42 now (it doesnt matter shes like a teen inside kheheh)... .....da paty was coool...betta than i expected...u knoe...alot off adults,borin music,etc..tis is how i pictured da patty.......but ma auntie ainte like tat..she like to move, to move a lott.,she ainte gona sit in one place,,,...soo it was good.....no one waz bored ..ma auntie didnt let'em .....khehe.....sumoff ma friends came....woohhooo...thoz galls knoe how to shake booties...dah!!they r cubanas...kheheh...wat cuban gall dun knoe how to shake... evrtink-...khehe....anyways.....we were eatin, dancin, gossipin lilbit....ok....not lilbit..damn alot...hehhe.....wel we'r only gall in tis borin world....in the midle off da patty..HE...appeared....ummff.......it was son of ma aunties friend.....grrrr...he was sezy,hot,,,latinoe.....uufff.....lil candy.......yammyyyy.....but unfortunately....in da mornin....all da ilusions were over....i found out dat he had a gall...dammmit!!!.....evrtime like tis..... all da hootiez r always taken....dammit...i need to get outta tis borin cold place..a.k.a..swe....me has no luck here wit guyz........
Here r sum pics from da bdae

from left2rite: ma granny(busy workin..heh),ma auntie,mee,maa granpaa, n teir frien

OLAlala....da cake....yammyy.......

da crew hehe...

owaa lil P.i.m.p. ..hihihih

.......

da very first..

2005-03-03T15:18:00.000-08:00

this shit dont work.........im here 3 hours tryin to fix it.......dammit dammit................. my lonelyness made me go crazy...... yeah yeah..thats wat happened..... damn i miss schooll........i miss my friends....only now i understand Kim...why she wants to go to schooll..there u dun feel so alone, so forgotten.......